I've been finding some real gems of written word out on the web.
Previously the search had often turned up plastic, like the kind you
find in bubblegum dispensers. The "jewelry" is dispensed with
big cheap gum balls. These sickening sweet globs don't chew
well. I spit them out, disappointed. Or, worse, I find their
discarded wrappers, along with the rest of the flotsam that
settled into the author's mental gutters. He found an art in
them. Maybe there is. But I can't see it. So I drift along,
shuffling along the web road of life, and sigh: "No pickins'
today. . ."
However, people have decided to surprise me lately.
One author shared her musings about what being a writer means.
In "Defining Myself as a Writer" Leah, (somebody, she must
have given her last name, SOMEwhere on her
site...http://members.aol.com/zoe98600/www/), seeks to know
whether she deserves to call herself a writer. Her honest
dialogue moved me to respond, as if almost in a trance. Those
words of hers had hypnotised me, and I wrote as I thought:
Defining Myself as a Writer....
Hm-m-mm. That is a constant inner dialogue with myself. I
remember when I was young and my father told me "You think
you're an artist! You don't draw, you don't paint..."
So with this learned fearfulness, (How DARE you think you're a
writer...you vain creature of illusions!)
(...gosh...am I going to send this rant???)
I return back to the inner dialogue, The STRUGGLE, the
fuzzy, but gradually clarifying view of perfection, a goal seen
in the distance. I get closer to seeing what it is. I see it in
the words of writers who move me, make me feel things, make me
ponder truths. This holy grail that ever fuels the fire of my
soul. . .
(What the hell, it beats boredom!)
I think that's the balance we need. We must take ourselves
seriously and yet not TOO seriously.
Remember to have FUN in life. We forget that. My painting
teacher told me HER teacher told her "To be a great artist, you
must suffer." My very young soul thought (as does my slighter
older soul now) , "Oh, yeah, cutting off your own ear really
helps your art???"
To be a great artist, you must laugh...laugh deep from the
well of the incredible richness of life. Laugh, and love and
feel it all, the whole gamut of this stuff called life. Be
aware to every sensation. Listen for ephemeral delicacies. Look
for ephemeral delicacies.
The very act of looking will improve
your vision. Look and wonder. Ponder. Ponder everything. Don't
be afraid to look under rocks. Truth redeems the 'dirt' and
'bugs'. Cry. Don't be afraid to cry. Sob 'til you think you're
going to fill the ocean. You'll 'weigh' less. Your soul with
the lightness of burdens released will dance again.
the pulse of the music deep within. It's calling to you. It
wants you to dance. You want to dance. Yeah, get out of that
chair that holds you...it is not your slave. Listen to your
body. Eat when you're hungry. Sleep when you're tired. Lay
your head on that pillow of dreams and float. It's all right,
Everything in your life is meant to be. Hard, scary,
silly, merry, angry, it is all part of the whole. Love the
whole, the whole of your inimitable existence. Love and share
your ephemeral delicacies. Eat those ephemeral
delicacies....plump berries of life. They go "pop!" in
your mouth, all those beautiful berries, and the juice tastes so
Be greedy for life, but share your treasures. There
is plenty of room at the table of life.